No Make-Up

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With make-up and without

I love make-up. No. I really love make-up. My personal philosophy when it comes to cosmetics is, “if it looks like you are not wearing make-up you are doing it wrong.” Make-up is defined as, “cosmetics such as lipstick or powder applied to the face, used to enhance or alter the appearance.”  My make-up style tends to lean more to the Kim Kardashian side of things. I look pretty different without it.

As a woman I have been told my entire life to find a man who, “Loves me without my make-up.” Because make-up is used to enhance and alter a persons looks this statement is implying that you should find someone who accepts you, even your flaws. I think it is universal that we all wanted be accepted for who we are as people. Here is my struggle. I want to come to God with my make-up on.

I can accept that another imperfect human should love me even though I am flawed. I just have a hard time coming to God with the mess that is so often my life. I want to “pretty” my spiritual life up before I come to God. An example of this is when I attended church. I have a hard time letting go in during the worship service because, I have not lived a particularly holy life that week.

But I am so wrong. God looks at the mess of my life and sees perfect beauty. He knows that our lives would look better with more Jesus in them but, He loves us any way. In Mark 2:17 Jesus used a different example He said,”Who needs a doctor: the healthy or the sick? I’m here inviting the sin-sick, not the spiritually-fit,” (MSG). God does not want us to feel judged and shame. That is not what He came to do.

“For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him.” John 3:17 (AMP)

You are loved with out make-up on your life by the one who knew what you looked like to begin with. Let Him accept you.

Judgment, Legalism, and Denominations.

I am so judgmental. This is something that has been pressing on my heart for a while. I was very bad about judging my fellow believers on their actions and their denomination.  Anyone who was sinning just wasn’t doing Christianity right. If they were not the same denomination I regarded them as cute but, not as Christian as me. But oh how the mighty have fallen.

After dealing with my own sin, and the black hole of the guilt I have after sinning, I am beginning to realize that my idea of Christianity was full of legalism. Legalism is defined as, “when someone obeys laws very strictly: The fact that someone obeys the laws in a very strict and exact way.” This notion I had also bred the judgment and distant I had of others who were sinning. Especially those who I “caught” sinning. Why could they just not sin? Or only do it once and not over and over?

The only sinless person was Jesus. While this is not a licenses to sin whenever one chooses it is a reminder that we are all equal and all need grace. Something I never learned till I realized I was in the middle of habitual sin. I still struggle with feeling like every time I sin I have to start all over with God. I am working on trying to find the balance between guilt and grace. But what this has taught me is that we all sin, all the time. This makes us all equal in the eyes of God.

Growing up, I heard elders in my denomination refer to others who were Christian but of a different denomination as, “not having Jesus like we do.”  This helped instill the idea that we were the only ones doing it right. This all brought about my judgmental frame of mind. Something I have begun to grasp the last few months is that the little stuff does not matter as long as you love Jesus and are actively seeking Him. In Luke 10:27-28 the Bible says, “He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.” What else matters but loving Jesus, loving others, and trying to further His kingdom?

 

Glitter and Guilt

I love love love glitter. I am currently wearing glitter eye shadow. There is one bad thing to all its sparkly wonder. It gets everywhere. I find it on the weirdest things. My beds, my clothes, even my poor little dog will “catch” the glitter disease from me. It covers anything it touches for about the next six months.

That is how my guilt feels. It gets on everything. It covers my heart. I know logically that as a human I am incapable of being perfectly sinless. Yet, I still feel guilty when sin. If I am incapable of living without sin and God knows I am going to sin anyway should I be less hard on myself? If I am not careful I will relax and let sin creep into my life. Where is the balance?

There are some things I think are wrong and are probably sin however, I am unsure. If I don’t feel guilt over these actions then are they sin? I have more questions than answers.