No Make-Up

20150412_113818

With make-up and without

I love make-up. No. I really love make-up. My personal philosophy when it comes to cosmetics is, “if it looks like you are not wearing make-up you are doing it wrong.” Make-up is defined as, “cosmetics such as lipstick or powder applied to the face, used to enhance or alter the appearance.”  My make-up style tends to lean more to the Kim Kardashian side of things. I look pretty different without it.

As a woman I have been told my entire life to find a man who, “Loves me without my make-up.” Because make-up is used to enhance and alter a persons looks this statement is implying that you should find someone who accepts you, even your flaws. I think it is universal that we all wanted be accepted for who we are as people. Here is my struggle. I want to come to God with my make-up on.

I can accept that another imperfect human should love me even though I am flawed. I just have a hard time coming to God with the mess that is so often my life. I want to “pretty” my spiritual life up before I come to God. An example of this is when I attended church. I have a hard time letting go in during the worship service because, I have not lived a particularly holy life that week.

But I am so wrong. God looks at the mess of my life and sees perfect beauty. He knows that our lives would look better with more Jesus in them but, He loves us any way. In Mark 2:17 Jesus used a different example He said,”Who needs a doctor: the healthy or the sick? I’m here inviting the sin-sick, not the spiritually-fit,” (MSG). God does not want us to feel judged and shame. That is not what He came to do.

“For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him.” John 3:17 (AMP)

You are loved with out make-up on your life by the one who knew what you looked like to begin with. Let Him accept you.

Welcome to my Boat

One of my best friends, Amanda, and I somehow end up having deep discussions about life in the car. No, not while we are driving together, but parked in a parking lot somewhere. These conversations always take place late at night. We are convinced that we will not only solve all of our own problems, but at some point the world’s problems too. The solution for world hunger will come out of one our late night car talks, mark my words.

It was in one of these talks that a phrase popped into my mind, “you cannot invite someone into your lifeboat, in hopes of saving them, if your lifeboat is full of holes.” Let me expand upon this idea a little more for you. Watching someone struggle with sin, addiction, or just life can be hard. It is common when you see someone struggling that you want to “save them,” especially, if you care about this person. I am someone who feels empathy deeply so it is really hard from me to not be able to fix everyone. However, if you are struggling with sin yourself and you are trying to pull someone out of sin the chances are you will both end up “sinking” into sin.

The Bible talks about this in Proverbs 12:26 “The godly give good advice to their friends; the wicked lead them astray.” (NLT) Most of the time this verse is used to convey the importance of having godly friends. But it can also emphasis that it should be necessary that we check ourselves before giving advice, so that we do not lead someone astray.  I do not ever want my sin to be a hazard of to someone else.

Set my heart on You. Give me tunnel vision for only You. Keep me from evil and help me not to cause others to fall because of me.

Recognize

One of the first things you will notice about me is that I am a momma’s girl. This is a key piece of information for my little story. I was sitting in the library between classes working on homework when suddenly my ears perked up. Out of my homework stupor I heard a sound that was familiar to me. A cough. Not just any cough but my momma’s. The following conversation took place:

Screenshot_2015-01-19-20-55-09

 

This library has three stories and many sections. I was not listening for my mom. I was not even thinking about her (Sorry Mommy). But I knew that sound well enough to recognize it. To know without a doubt that is was her.

When God speaks do you recognize His voice? The word Recognize is defined as: identify (someone or something) from having encountered them before; know again. The only way to recognize God’s voice is to have encountered Him. We cannot recognize what we have never known to begin with.

“Jesus answered, “I told you, but you don’t believe. Everything I have done has been authorized by my Father, actions that speak louder than words. You don’t believe because you’re not my sheep. My sheep recognize my voice. I know them, and they follow me. I give them real and eternal life. They are protected from the Destroyer for good. No one can steal them from out of my hand. The Father who put them under my care is so much greater than the Destroyer and Thief. No one could ever get them away from him. I and the Father are one heart and mind.” John 10:25-30 (MSG)

 

Speaking Voice

I ignore God.

Until I have to sound like a good Christian.

Then I drum something up.

I fail at basic Christian functions.

I never respected those who would try to “preach” to you,

be it from a pulpit or in a conversation,

if they were not living what they were advocating.

Yet, that’s what I do.

If you don’t speak to me, how can you be My voice?

We are called to be His voice in the world.

Everyone is broken. Everyone needs Him. Everyone needs to hear Him.

If I don’t have the words how can I show anyone Him.

I get my words from Him.

But if I don’t actually talk to Him where are they coming from?

Who are they coming from?

I let my busyness and brokenness come in between me and God.

“May God himself, the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together—spirit, soul, and body—and keep you fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he’ll do it!” 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24

Legacy

Today is December 5, 2014. 113 years ago on this day one of the most imporant people in my life was born. Walter Elias Disney was born on December 5, 1901, in Hermosa, Illinois. He changed the world forever. In a way, I feel like Mr. Diseny has had a big influence in my life. He created a place I love, and helped remind people that hope and goodness will always win. His ideas created a company with arugable the best customer service in the world. Although he passed away before I was born Mr. Disney will always remain a guiding light and a sort of fairy godfather to me. He left the world a legacy of hope. But were did his hope come from? While I am not attempting to judge the state of another persons heart I can not help but notice a few simalarities.
 

walt 1
“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.” Matthew 6:34 NIV
walt 2
“If thou faint in the day of adversity, thy strength is small.” Proverbs 24:10 KJV
walt 3
“Honor and enjoy your Creator while you’re still young,
Before the years take their toll and your vigor wanes,” Ecclesiastes 12:1 MSG

walt 6
“The righteous shall move onward and forward; those with pure hearts shall become stronger and stronger.” Job 17:9 TLB

walt 7

“Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might,” Ecclesiastes 9:10a NIV

images (1)
“Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 NIV

 
When I look back on the life of Mr. Disney and his legacy it makes me wonder what my legacy will be? Will I be showing others to Chirst in my own way? Will I leave the world with a message of hope? What will your life say?

Princess Anna

deja-vu-the-recycled-feminism-of-disney-s-frozen-2afbdae7-dafb-48f6-92c2-b0eecda46d74 (1)

 

I relate a lot to Anna. I am the type of person who would want to get married after a day of knowing someone, if it was true love of course. I also truthfully believe that talking to my sister will fix almost any problem in the world, well my world at least. She would and has stopped me from making bad decisions. Although she has never frozen a country she leans more towards Elsa and I tend to be more like Anna.

Princess Anna loses her parents and in a way her sister. (Spoiler Alert)She has no family, no friends, and like Hans says no one to love her. So naturally she does what most females in her position do, she finds a truly terrible man to give her what she thinks love is. This almost destroys her life and the life of several others. All because she is missing love in her life.

Now for the scary part. We live in a world of Princess Annas. People, not just women, are desperately searching for love. I do not mean romantic love although that is what it is mistaken for I mean real true, total acceptance, love. As a follower of Christ it is up to us to show the love to the world. Not just evangelizing, but actually caring about them. This means overlooking their sins and how they have wronged you and pouring out love and kindness constantly.

The best examples of this kind of love in my life are my mom, sister, and a few close friends (A&A). They love and support me unconditionally. But they reason that these strong women are able to give me the love I crave is because of the love of God in them. They let His love show thru them. Even when I am making hard for them, they still love me.

If no one has told you today. You are loved. You have value. You have a purpose. You have someone pursing you with all of His might. He knows where you are and you are not alone. You do have the strength to make it because He will give it to you. He loves you even if it feels like no one else does.

 

“For God is sheer beauty,

    all-generous in love,

    loyal always and ever.” Psalms 100:5 MSG

 

Magic Wand

download

Want to know something really cool but, kind of scary about God?  He knows everything about everything. All the time. Seriously. Sometimes, I forget this. He reminded me that He knows everything about my life this weekend.

Over this journey to rediscover a life with God I have failed a lot. I do well living for Him for a while then I mess up. I would feel guilt and remorse the instant I sin. I would beg God to just fix me so I wouldn’t have to deal with my sin anymore. I had shared with a few people that I wish there was a magic spiritual wand that would fix my sinful nature. I used this phrase “magic wand” over and over when I expressed my desire to be free of temptation. Having grown up Pentecostal I was thinking a Holy Spirit filled shouting fest was what I needed.

Imagine my surprise when I was sitting in the first service of the retreat Friday night and the speaker, Darren Schalk, began to talk about the magic wand of ministry. Logically, I know God is everywhere and knows all things but, I did not think about Him being a part of conversations. He began to relate that while there were no magic wands, there are tools that will give you a powerful walk with God. I have a minor in religion, go to a Christian university, and have been in the church my entire life. I have taught children’s church, worked in youth camp, and led worship. I had never heard the secret to a powerful Christian life before and I have never heard it like the evangelist shared.

The secret is prayer, fasting, and bible study. This hit me like a rock in the head. I had been desperately begging God to help me overcome sin in my life. I was not able to understand why I was not succeeding. In that service it was like God was telling me, “Stop whining, here is the key you have been looking for.” I feel like I am more capable to prevail over sin, like everything I had been pleading for was given to me. It is so simple but I have already seen a change in my life. Pray, fast, and study your bible, how much easier could it be.

“For as long as we lived that old way of life, doing whatever we felt we could get away with, sin was calling most of the shots as the old law code hemmed us in. And this made us all the more rebellious. In the end, all we had to show for it was miscarriages and stillbirths. But now that we’re no longer shackled to that domineering mate of sin, and out from under all those oppressive regulations and fine print, we’re free to live a new life in the freedom of God.” Romans 7:5-6

Thank you for showing me the answer when I couldn’t find it on my own.