No Make-Up


With make-up and without

I love make-up. No. I really love make-up. My personal philosophy when it comes to cosmetics is, “if it looks like you are not wearing make-up you are doing it wrong.” Make-up is defined as, “cosmetics such as lipstick or powder applied to the face, used to enhance or alter the appearance.”  My make-up style tends to lean more to the Kim Kardashian side of things. I look pretty different without it.

As a woman I have been told my entire life to find a man who, “Loves me without my make-up.” Because make-up is used to enhance and alter a persons looks this statement is implying that you should find someone who accepts you, even your flaws. I think it is universal that we all wanted be accepted for who we are as people. Here is my struggle. I want to come to God with my make-up on.

I can accept that another imperfect human should love me even though I am flawed. I just have a hard time coming to God with the mess that is so often my life. I want to “pretty” my spiritual life up before I come to God. An example of this is when I attended church. I have a hard time letting go in during the worship service because, I have not lived a particularly holy life that week.

But I am so wrong. God looks at the mess of my life and sees perfect beauty. He knows that our lives would look better with more Jesus in them but, He loves us any way. In Mark 2:17 Jesus used a different example He said,”Who needs a doctor: the healthy or the sick? I’m here inviting the sin-sick, not the spiritually-fit,” (MSG). God does not want us to feel judged and shame. That is not what He came to do.

“For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him.” John 3:17 (AMP)

You are loved with out make-up on your life by the one who knew what you looked like to begin with. Let Him accept you.


If you were to ask me to describe myself very shortly, into that conversation you would hear the word obsessed used in a sentence with the word Disney. Obsessed is a bit of an understatement. Disney is my passion. I love it way more than a person should. I have very set opinions on just about anything to do with the Walt Disney Corporation. So why am I obsessed with Disney?

Let me take you on a journey for a moment. You are standing in front of Cinderella’s castle.


This is a side view but, it is my favorite picture that i have taken of the castle. You are watching the night sky be filled with a wonder inspiring display of fireworks perfectly timed to this music.The smell of vanilla and baked goods drifts into your senses. For about thirteen minuets you feel like good will always win and all our wishes will come true. Being at Walt Disney World makes it possible to pretend, for a short time, that the world is a happy place and for the most part that everyone is nice and the few bad guys are very easy to spot.

Why do I love Disney? Because Disney gives me a small taste of a world of happiness. I think that is one reason that the Disney company is so successful-because people are longing for a world of happy. For me, Disney is a just a tiny sample of what Heaven is going to be like. No sadness, no bad guys, and no sickness. Everyone will be happy. Disney reminds me that this not my home. That, some day, I will get to spend eternity with a King in perfect happiness.

“For instance, we know that when these bodies of ours are taken down like tents and folded away, they will be replaced by resurrection bodies in heaven—God-made, not handmade—and we’ll never have to relocate our “tents” again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to move—and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what’s coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we’re tired of it! We’ve been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what’s ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we’ll never settle for less.” 2 Corinthians 5:1-5 (MSG)

Princess Anna

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I relate a lot to Anna. I am the type of person who would want to get married after a day of knowing someone, if it was true love of course. I also truthfully believe that talking to my sister will fix almost any problem in the world, well my world at least. She would and has stopped me from making bad decisions. Although she has never frozen a country she leans more towards Elsa and I tend to be more like Anna.

Princess Anna loses her parents and in a way her sister. (Spoiler Alert)She has no family, no friends, and like Hans says no one to love her. So naturally she does what most females in her position do, she finds a truly terrible man to give her what she thinks love is. This almost destroys her life and the life of several others. All because she is missing love in her life.

Now for the scary part. We live in a world of Princess Annas. People, not just women, are desperately searching for love. I do not mean romantic love although that is what it is mistaken for I mean real true, total acceptance, love. As a follower of Christ it is up to us to show the love to the world. Not just evangelizing, but actually caring about them. This means overlooking their sins and how they have wronged you and pouring out love and kindness constantly.

The best examples of this kind of love in my life are my mom, sister, and a few close friends (A&A). They love and support me unconditionally. But they reason that these strong women are able to give me the love I crave is because of the love of God in them. They let His love show thru them. Even when I am making hard for them, they still love me.

If no one has told you today. You are loved. You have value. You have a purpose. You have someone pursing you with all of His might. He knows where you are and you are not alone. You do have the strength to make it because He will give it to you. He loves you even if it feels like no one else does.


“For God is sheer beauty,

    all-generous in love,

    loyal always and ever.” Psalms 100:5 MSG


Death, Blood, and Flynn Rider



Recently, I walked into work and was told that a coworker, who was dear to me, had passed away unexpectedly. It left me shocked. And even though I know I will see him again, I will miss him. I thought about all the things I wanted to tell him but didn’t get to. It made me tell those around me that I love them. I wanted them to know I valued them while I had the chance to still tell them. Death is so final.


Thursday, I had a small, simple medical procedure done that should have been no big deal and take a total of 15 minutes. But me, being the drama queen that I am, could not be simple. I ended up bleeding for about 8 hours. I am not a science person, but I know that blood is kind of important. It is something that is necessary to survive. It is our life force. It is what keeps us functioning. Thankfully, I survived, but it was scary there for a bit.

Flynn Rider

Flynn Rider is one of my favorite Disney character. He is the only one to question why everyone is singing. And of course we cannot forget “the smolder.” His confidence is one reason I liked him but once his true character is shown I adored him. Flynn is willing to give his life for Rapunzel to be happy. His is the ultimate sacrifice.

So what do these three things have to do with each other? Lets us work our way back. Flynn Rider is like Jesus. Jesus gave his life for us. Flynn gave his life for Rapunzel. Flynn died so that Rapunzel would be free from her wicked mother. Jesus died so that we could be free from sin. In the Old Testament the children of Israel needed the blood of an animal to be sacrificed to cover their sins. It was the only way into heaven. Jesus’ blood now covers that. He was our sacrifice so that we have our sins covered; he paid our “sin bill.” Death has lost its scariness because of the blood of Jesus. I know in whom I believe and I do not have to fear death. He paid for my mistakes. His blood is my victory over death.

“But let me tell you something wonderful, a mystery I’ll probably never fully understand. We’re not all going to die—but we are all going to be changed. You hear a blast to end all blasts from a trumpet, and in the time that you look up and blink your eyes—it’s over. On signal from that trumpet from heaven, the dead will be up and out of their graves, beyond the reach of death, never to die again. At the same moment and in the same way, we’ll all be changed. In the resurrection scheme of things, this has to happen: everything perishable taken off the shelves and replaced by the imperishable, this mortal replaced by the immortal. Then the saying will come true:

Death swallowed by triumphant Life!
Who got the last word, oh, Death?
Oh, Death, who’s afraid of you now?
It was sin that made death so frightening and law-code guilt that gave sin its leverage, its destructive power. But now in a single victorious stroke of Life, all three—sin, guilt, death—are gone, the gift of our Master, Jesus Christ. Thank God!” 1 Corinthians 15:55-57 (MSG)

Let It Go

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I warned you that my frozen blogs were going to be a series. I have been thinking about this idea for a while. All the different ways you can take the concept of letting go. Letting go can be a good thing or a really hard thing to do. What are the ways we can let go? I am glad you asked! I made a list.
Letting go of Sin
What separates us from God? Sin. Until you have been in a place where you were truly a captive of sin, you cannot understand how hard letting go is. But, until you are able to do this,  you will never truly be free. This means you have to make the choice that there is something more important than the sin you have been living in. It is a struggle but, once you feel the freedom God has, you will know it was worth it.   
Letting go of Pain
Lately, I have been talking to some people who have experienced some sort of tragic life event. This can be anything from abuse, dysfunctional families, illness, or even negative interactions with the church. Most of them do not want to be free of that hurt. It amazes me the people want to feel pain rather than live without it. Their brooding makes it easier to push others and God away but they need that pain as a motivator. Trust me, life pain free is better.
Letting go to allow God to work
Allowing God to work in your life can be rather difficult. It means you have to let go of the control you have and let Him be your guide. It can even mean letting Him redirect the path of your life. If a house is broken and not working, you can continue to live in it for a while. But, at some point, the repairs will be to great and the house will be condemned. To make it live able it will have to be torn down and totally rebuilt. Let Him work on you now so you do not need to be reconstructed later.
Letting go to be used by God
I hear so many people say that they want to see a mighty move of God but they do not want to be a part of it. If you do not allow God to use you nothing will ever get done. It can be as simple as speaking to someone when the Holy Spirit prompts you to. Just letting go of the embarrassment that we sometimes feel with stepping out in faith can take a lot.
“If you’ll hold on to me for dear life,” says God, “I’ll get you out of any trouble.
I’ll give you the best of care if you’ll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I’ll answer, be at your side in bad times; I’ll rescue you, then throw you a party. I’ll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!”
Psalm 91:14-16 (MSG)



I am getting ready to go to a weekend spiritual church retreat. I get to spend the weekend with some of my best friends that I rarely get to see. We will spend time swimming, doing beauty treatments, and just being crazy girls together. Of course, there will be some church services in there too. I am really excited to get this time with my friends! I have been looking forward to this weekend for a while and the preparation began some time ago.

A month ago I bought a tanning bed membership so I would look dark at the pool. I bought new clothes. I am going to get a manicure and pedicure done tomorrow. I will also color my hair tomorrow so it will be nice and bright pink before I go. All of my preparation reminds me of Mulan getting ready to meet the matchmaker. You can watch that scene Here. I have been putting a lot of work into my appearance just like Mulan and I have had a team of people helping me. Making sure every little detail is as close to appearing perfect as possible.

While I was thinking about what all I have to do to get ready before I leave, I realized that I have not done one single thing to prepare my heart.  Is there still sin in my life? Yes. Is there still bad habits? Yes. I have been so caught up in the physical that I have completely missed the spiritual. The whole point of this weekend is to get a spiritual recharge, to grow in my walk with God, and to spend time seeking Him. I have missed it and I have not even gone yet. I have allowed the prospect of having fun with my friends to overtake the work God is planning to do in me. What good is making the outside look pretty when the inside is still dirty? So let this be my prayer,


“Lord forgive us when we get consumed by the things of this world,
That fight for our love, and our passion,
As our eyes are open wide and on you.
Grant us the privilege of your world view,
And may your kingdom be, what wakes us up, and lays us down.”






Just A Taste


“The serpent was clever, more clever than any wild animal GOD had made. He spoke to the Woman: “Do I understand that God told you not to eat from any tree in the garden?” The Woman said to the serpent, “Not at all. We can eat from the trees in the garden. It’s only about the tree in the middle of the garden that God said, ‘Don’t eat from it; don’t even touch it or you’ll die.’” The serpent told the Woman, “You won’t die. God knows that the moment you eat from that tree, you’ll see what’s really going on. You’ll be just like God, knowing everything, ranging all the way from good to evil.” When the Woman saw that the tree looked like good eating and realized what she would get out of it—she’d know everything!—she took and ate the fruit and then gave some to her husband, and he ate. Immediately the two of them did “see what’s really going on”—saw themselves naked! They sewed fig leaves together as makeshift clothes for themselves.”(MSG) Genesis 3:1-7

Snow White is like Eve in the bible. They both went through phases before giving into sin, vulnerability, temptation, and deception. Both knew better and both suffered for their actions. Fruit was both of their downfalls and both had someone to encourage them to sin. Eve had the serpent and Snow had the Evil Queen.
Being vulnerable is the first step to giving into sin. The dwarfs were gone to the mines when the Evil Queen came to Snow. The serpent came to Eve when she was away from Adam and before she had spent her time with God that day. Knowing when you are exposed to the attacks of the enemy and preparing for those times will make you less likely to give into sin. For me I tend to be vulnerable when I am tired or lonely.
You are not going to be tempted with something that is unappealing to you. For me something like recreational drugs have no interest for me. Someone offering me weed is not going to be a hard one for me to say no to but, the things I am tempted with are nearly impossible for me to deny. The Evil Queen offered Snow White all of her dreams coming true if she only took one taste of the apple. The serpent offered Eve all the knowledge that God had if she would eat the forbidden fruit. The temptation will come when you are unprepared and it will be something you want.
The deception comes in the way it sin is offered. The Queen was disguised so Snow could not see the danger. The tree of the knowledge of good and evil was beautiful; otherwise Eve would not have wanted to eat from it. The devil never shows you what happens after you give into the temptation. Snow White fell into an eternal death like sleep after one bite. Eve was given more pain in childbirth and that her husband would lord over her. Giving into sin means dealing with the consequences and the bible says in Romans 6:23 that the wages of sin are death.
Like all fairy tales Snow White’s story has a happy ending. Her prince charming, whose official name is Prince Florian, kisses her and breaks the spell bring Snow White out of her sleep. My story is has a happy ending too. Jesus, my prince, died for me so I do not have to face the consequences of my sin. All I have to do is call and He will come rescue me. Fairy tales do come true.