No Make-Up

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With make-up and without

I love make-up. No. I really love make-up. My personal philosophy when it comes to cosmetics is, “if it looks like you are not wearing make-up you are doing it wrong.” Make-up is defined as, “cosmetics such as lipstick or powder applied to the face, used to enhance or alter the appearance.”  My make-up style tends to lean more to the Kim Kardashian side of things. I look pretty different without it.

As a woman I have been told my entire life to find a man who, “Loves me without my make-up.” Because make-up is used to enhance and alter a persons looks this statement is implying that you should find someone who accepts you, even your flaws. I think it is universal that we all wanted be accepted for who we are as people. Here is my struggle. I want to come to God with my make-up on.

I can accept that another imperfect human should love me even though I am flawed. I just have a hard time coming to God with the mess that is so often my life. I want to “pretty” my spiritual life up before I come to God. An example of this is when I attended church. I have a hard time letting go in during the worship service because, I have not lived a particularly holy life that week.

But I am so wrong. God looks at the mess of my life and sees perfect beauty. He knows that our lives would look better with more Jesus in them but, He loves us any way. In Mark 2:17 Jesus used a different example He said,”Who needs a doctor: the healthy or the sick? I’m here inviting the sin-sick, not the spiritually-fit,” (MSG). God does not want us to feel judged and shame. That is not what He came to do.

“For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him.” John 3:17 (AMP)

You are loved with out make-up on your life by the one who knew what you looked like to begin with. Let Him accept you.

Welcome to my Boat

One of my best friends, Amanda, and I somehow end up having deep discussions about life in the car. No, not while we are driving together, but parked in a parking lot somewhere. These conversations always take place late at night. We are convinced that we will not only solve all of our own problems, but at some point the world’s problems too. The solution for world hunger will come out of one our late night car talks, mark my words.

It was in one of these talks that a phrase popped into my mind, “you cannot invite someone into your lifeboat, in hopes of saving them, if your lifeboat is full of holes.” Let me expand upon this idea a little more for you. Watching someone struggle with sin, addiction, or just life can be hard. It is common when you see someone struggling that you want to “save them,” especially, if you care about this person. I am someone who feels empathy deeply so it is really hard from me to not be able to fix everyone. However, if you are struggling with sin yourself and you are trying to pull someone out of sin the chances are you will both end up “sinking” into sin.

The Bible talks about this in Proverbs 12:26 “The godly give good advice to their friends; the wicked lead them astray.” (NLT) Most of the time this verse is used to convey the importance of having godly friends. But it can also emphasis that it should be necessary that we check ourselves before giving advice, so that we do not lead someone astray.  I do not ever want my sin to be a hazard of to someone else.

Set my heart on You. Give me tunnel vision for only You. Keep me from evil and help me not to cause others to fall because of me.

Recognize

One of the first things you will notice about me is that I am a momma’s girl. This is a key piece of information for my little story. I was sitting in the library between classes working on homework when suddenly my ears perked up. Out of my homework stupor I heard a sound that was familiar to me. A cough. Not just any cough but my momma’s. The following conversation took place:

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This library has three stories and many sections. I was not listening for my mom. I was not even thinking about her (Sorry Mommy). But I knew that sound well enough to recognize it. To know without a doubt that is was her.

When God speaks do you recognize His voice? The word Recognize is defined as: identify (someone or something) from having encountered them before; know again. The only way to recognize God’s voice is to have encountered Him. We cannot recognize what we have never known to begin with.

“Jesus answered, “I told you, but you don’t believe. Everything I have done has been authorized by my Father, actions that speak louder than words. You don’t believe because you’re not my sheep. My sheep recognize my voice. I know them, and they follow me. I give them real and eternal life. They are protected from the Destroyer for good. No one can steal them from out of my hand. The Father who put them under my care is so much greater than the Destroyer and Thief. No one could ever get them away from him. I and the Father are one heart and mind.” John 10:25-30 (MSG)

 

Speaking Voice

I ignore God.

Until I have to sound like a good Christian.

Then I drum something up.

I fail at basic Christian functions.

I never respected those who would try to “preach” to you,

be it from a pulpit or in a conversation,

if they were not living what they were advocating.

Yet, that’s what I do.

If you don’t speak to me, how can you be My voice?

We are called to be His voice in the world.

Everyone is broken. Everyone needs Him. Everyone needs to hear Him.

If I don’t have the words how can I show anyone Him.

I get my words from Him.

But if I don’t actually talk to Him where are they coming from?

Who are they coming from?

I let my busyness and brokenness come in between me and God.

“May God himself, the God who makes everything holy and whole, make you holy and whole, put you together—spirit, soul, and body—and keep you fit for the coming of our Master, Jesus Christ. The One who called you is completely dependable. If he said it, he’ll do it!” 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24

Obsessed

If you were to ask me to describe myself very shortly, into that conversation you would hear the word obsessed used in a sentence with the word Disney. Obsessed is a bit of an understatement. Disney is my passion. I love it way more than a person should. I have very set opinions on just about anything to do with the Walt Disney Corporation. So why am I obsessed with Disney?

Let me take you on a journey for a moment. You are standing in front of Cinderella’s castle.

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This is a side view but, it is my favorite picture that i have taken of the castle. You are watching the night sky be filled with a wonder inspiring display of fireworks perfectly timed to this music.The smell of vanilla and baked goods drifts into your senses. For about thirteen minuets you feel like good will always win and all our wishes will come true. Being at Walt Disney World makes it possible to pretend, for a short time, that the world is a happy place and for the most part that everyone is nice and the few bad guys are very easy to spot.

Why do I love Disney? Because Disney gives me a small taste of a world of happiness. I think that is one reason that the Disney company is so successful-because people are longing for a world of happy. For me, Disney is a just a tiny sample of what Heaven is going to be like. No sadness, no bad guys, and no sickness. Everyone will be happy. Disney reminds me that this not my home. That, some day, I will get to spend eternity with a King in perfect happiness.

“For instance, we know that when these bodies of ours are taken down like tents and folded away, they will be replaced by resurrection bodies in heaven—God-made, not handmade—and we’ll never have to relocate our “tents” again. Sometimes we can hardly wait to move—and so we cry out in frustration. Compared to what’s coming, living conditions around here seem like a stopover in an unfurnished shack, and we’re tired of it! We’ve been given a glimpse of the real thing, our true home, our resurrection bodies! The Spirit of God whets our appetite by giving us a taste of what’s ahead. He puts a little of heaven in our hearts so that we’ll never settle for less.” 2 Corinthians 5:1-5 (MSG)

Church and Making Changes

Hebrews 10:25
Do not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching

So its confession time… See the “some” up there in the verse. I am one of those some. The last time I regularly attended church was about 2 years ago. I am ashamed to say that. For the first year my life was in turmoil and I used that as an excuse for not going. This past year I started working and I can only think of a few Sundays I have had off in that time. But again excuses excuses. I have thought about going. But for most of the churches in the area I can give you a reason I don’t want to go to them. Such as: The *insert random name here* family goes there and what will the think. Deep down everyone is afraid of everyone else.

Last night I went to church. It’s amazing how much I missed visiting Your house. My soul was like a malnourished child being lead to an all you can eat buffet for the first time. It made me realize how valuable gathering together, worshiping, learning and praying with others truly is. Just hearing a passage of scripture from someone else perspective can help you learn from it. I am not a theologian I am just a college kid trying to grow in my walk with God. I know there are those out there who are so much wiser than me and I want to learn from them.

Forgive me for taking this long to see what I was missing. Here is my promise to You. I promise to come visit Your house more, to spend more time learning from others, to worship you with those who also seek You. I love you.